Bernie (Part Twelve)
Bernie is a poverty-stricken woman whose life takes an unexpected turn when an old friend returns to town. This is Part Twelve.
Parts: 1|2|3|4|5|6|7|8|9|10|11|12|The End
Related reading: Talk With a Killer, Wall
Part Twelve
Bernie noticed that the nurse’s name badge said, “Judy.” She liked her, and even though she couldn’t say it, knowing her name took her one step closer to the real world. Right now, though, she wanted to know about someone else.
“Shonda?” Bernie wrote.
Judy nodded. “We all know Shonda. Tina should be calling her right now.”
Bernie smiled, then furrowed her brow. “Tina?” she wrote.
“Oh, Tina’s the other nurse on shift with me. Shonda wanted to know the minute you showed any sign of change, good or bad. She’s been real worried about you.”
Bernie let that sink in. It was a new feeling for her. Sure, she had a few people around town who helped her occasionally, but how many of them would worry about her if she just disappeared?
“She’s not the only one who’s been asking after you.” Judy opened a closet door to Bernie’s right; she hadn’t noticed it when it was closed. On the door hung what looked like a garment bag, but it was made of clear pockets large enough for greeting cards.
All of them were full. The cards bore messages ranging from “Get Well Soon” to “Thinking About You,” in greens, reds, blues, and other colors that helped add life to the room.
Bernie’s eyes watered. Her chin quivered and she shook enough to send tears spilling over her eyelids and streaming down her face.
A familiar voice came from the room door. “And you should have seen all the flowers at first.”
Bernie turned her head slowly. Shonda rushed over and set two cans of soda — a Coke and a Diet RC — on a table beside the bed. She laid a palm on Bernie’s forehead and pushed back a few straggling hairs. “I can’t believe you’re awake!” she said. “I tried to be calm, because they told us to if this happened, but dammit I want to jump around!”
“Go ahead, she seems fine,” Judy said.
Shonda stood and pumped her first while thrashing her head around. “Yeah! Yeah! Hell yeah!”
Bernie tried to laugh, but it didn’t work. She smiled wide instead.
Another nurse walked in. “Judy, the doctor is on her way.” Then, to Bernie, “Welcome back, Ms. Maven.”
Searching for some way to say, “Thanks,” from across the room, Bernie nodded and closed her eyes for a moment, then looked up at her and smiled.
Shonda straightened her blouse and pushed a few straggling hairs behind her ears. “Okay, I think that’s all of that for now.” She composed herself and her smile faded to a toothless grin. “You’ve been to Hell and back. As soon as you’re ready, we’re going to celebrate.”
“That’s going to be a while,” Judy said.
“Who saved me?” Bernie wrote.
“Our surgical team spent hours working on you, but no single person, really.”
Bernie shook her head and scribbled out more. “No. I was passed out in a shack.” She consciously wrote “a” instead of “my.” She motioned to Shonda to come read it.
“Who saved you from your shack?” Shonda said. “Glenda.”
Bernie’s eyes opened wide. “Not dead?” she wrote.
“Not even close. She was hurt, but she played possum. She figured if Nathan tried anything else on you, she would catch him by surprise, but after he left, she just picked you up and walked out to West Main to flag down a car. Tough lady.”
Nathan? Bernie’s heart raced. She tried to write a note saying it was Jeff.
“Calm down, Bernie. I can’t read that.”
“Her heart rate is 100 and her BP’s rising,” Judy said.
The other nurse rushed back into the room.
Bernie didn’t want to be drugged. She needed answers, so she tried to rein in her reaction. Why do they think it was Nathan?
“She’s leveling off,” Judy said. “There. I think she’s okay.”
Bernie fought to keep her hand still enough to write. “It was Jeff,” she wrote.
Shonda looked at it a moment, then seemed to comprehend. “No, sweetie, it was Nathan. Nathan Kern, from Pop Kern’s store. Glenda said she got a good look at him. Maybe you’re just getting confused because you’ve been out for so long, and Jeff was on your mind that night.”
“Confusion about the trauma is not unusual,” Judy said.
Bernie nodded and poked the notepad repeatedly. It was Jeff! It was Jeff!
“Jeff was with Jeremy at a movie,” Shonda said. “Look, I know I freaked you out a little bit when I told you all that stuff, but Jeff could never do that to you. He was into you. Besides, you know Nathan’s had it out for you since high school. When we saw him at the store that day and he saw you doing better, it must have pushed him over the edge.”
But you told me you thought staying away from Jeff was a good idea. Stupefied, Bernie closed her eyes.
“I can’t believe you almost died, Bernie,” Shonda said. “I died twice, but the doctors brought me back to life with toothpaste and extracted the devil from my rectum.”
“We do have excellent surgeons,” Judy said.
They both smiled with mouths somehow too wide, and sinister, unblinking eyes.
“Whatsa matter, Bernie, vent got your tongue?” Shonda said and laughed maniacally.
I must be dreaming. Please, somebody wake me up!
“Ms. Maven, can you hear me?” said a voice she did not recognize.
Bernie opened her eyes. A woman, maybe 50 years old, leaned over her and shined a penlight in her eyes. Bernie squinted.
Behind the woman, the same painting of a flowery field hung on the wall. “In case of emergency, press red call button,” was printed on the sign beneath it.
How much of that was a dream?
Her muscles tense, she turned her head. Shonda sat in a chair reading a book called Make Your Travel Dollars Worth a Fortune. On the table, next to two sodas, was another book, its cover advising, Fly Free, Stay Cheap.
Bernie tapped the bed rail.
Shonda looked up. “Hey, you’re awake,” she said and put both hands around one of Bernie’s. “You think you might stay awake this time? You’ve been in and out all day.”
Unsure how much had been real, Bernie looked over to the closet door. The greeting cards still were there.
“I wanted to tell you that I’m really sorry about what happened to you. I just can’t believe it.” Shonda said.
Bernie relaxed. “Glenda?” she wrote.
“You remember that Glenda was there? She saved you. Somehow dragged herself and you to the foreman’s trailer. Thank God he was there doing some paperwork. Glenda insisted he help you instead of her. So, he used whatever first aid and CPR skills he had and kept you alive until the EMT’s got there. By then, Glenda was dead. Poor thing.
“With her gone, the police had nothing to go on. Somebody told them there was animosity between you and her, so at first they thought you two had been in a fight. Do you remember what happened?”
“Jeff did it,” Bernie wrote.
Shonda jerked her hands away from Bernie and put them on her horrified face. “Oh my God. I’m so sorry. I never should have let you out of the car that night.” She grabbed Bernie’s hand again. “I tried to tell Jeremy it might have been Jeff, but he wouldn’t listen. He started to believe me a couple weeks later, though.
“After Jeff went back to Curtiston, he had a blowup with a man who was trying to force him out of office. The guy turned up dead and someone reported seeing somebody who looked like Jeff leaving the scene. Now he’s sitting in Lawson County Jail waiting to be transferred for trial. I’m sure the prosecution will want to hear your story, as soon as you feel up to it. That sick son of a bitch.”
Bernie squeezed Shonda’s hand and wrote, “I will tell them everything.”
March 10th, 2008 at 5:12 am
Ok, something doesn’t sit right.
” but after he left, she just picked you up and walked out to West Main to flag down a car. Tough lady.””
and
“She saved you. Somehow dragged herself and you to the foreman’s trailer.”
Not sure if you caught that Mark.
Part of me was wondering if Shonda was part of this with Jeff…. (it could have gone that way), but I’m glad it didn’t.
March 10th, 2008 at 6:24 am
Dave - Caught what? Bernie dreamed the first scenario.
March 10th, 2008 at 7:34 am
*LOL* My bad then… I never realized that was a dream…. especially since the cards were there, the name Judy was the same, and Shonda was there.
March 10th, 2008 at 8:02 am
I also get that Bernie dreamed the first sequence, but the transition felt pretty awkward to me. There was some indication there where Bernie closed her eyes, and then opened her eyes at the sound of the doctor’s voice. I had to read through that section a few times for it to make sense to me.
Pity about Glenda, though. Poor girl had a big heart after all.
March 10th, 2008 at 8:27 am
Simon and Dave - I was hoping it would make readers go back and look for the point that she fell asleep again. That part worked. But, I looked forward to feedback so I could figure out what might need work.
March 10th, 2008 at 2:34 pm
I also caught the dream aspect of it. And though I now get that Shonda’s comment about pulling devils from her bum was illogical dream babble, I’ll admit I read it three or four times before shaking my head and continuing befuddledly onward only to go “Aaaah” two lines later. Not quite sure how to smooth out that transition, but it was a bit strained for me.
Other than that, very good stuff. I haven’t chimed in in a while, but I’m very impressed with the story. The last two chapters, while well written and detailed have dragged just a bit for me since there’s no desernable tension…especially following on the heels of the attack scene. I assume that’s why you put in the dream sequence. Basically, it’s a tough section. I’m guessing you’ve got more planned and you need to get all this information to the reader so we’re ready for what comes next without bogging down the flow of the story. I think you were mostly successful. It bogged a little…but I can’t wait to see what comes next. And that’s the real test
March 10th, 2008 at 6:07 pm
Moksha - I think a large part of my problem is that I have a main character (whose POV is the only POV) trapped in a hospital bed without the ability to speak. I guess I’m not good enough yet to get around that.
Maybe I could have had Shonda recount a story, but instead of using dialogue, write it like I did Bernie’s flashbacks. That way, Shonda’s telling the story, but we feel we’re there. Hmm…
Anyway, this was a challenge and I’m ready to skip forward substantially. This wasn’t meant to be a story about a person’s long recovery, but that’s exactly what Bernie has coming. Drat.
I think the bottom line is that if I were to re-write this, I would not use Stivins. I had to make it so that he didn’t get caught for attacking Bernie before he was able to kill his victim in “Talk with a Killer.” Thus, the coma.
The dream sequence originally was the actual story, but then I decided not to go that direction, and re-worked it as a dream. I thought it might provide a little tension that way but still allow Shonda to be a good guy.
March 11th, 2008 at 4:47 am
“I think the bottom line is that if I were to re-write this, I would not use Stivins.”?????
But, you didn’t use Stivins. (I’m getting even more confused now.. *chuckling*)
I think it’s fine as it is, maybe just a bit more soul-searching from her such as “was I dreaming, or was it real.. it’s all so foggy now” kinda thing.
March 11th, 2008 at 6:21 am
Dave - Um, Jeff Stivins. The guy who tried to kill Bernie and did kill Glenda. Maybe I didn’t use his last name recently enough in this story for you to recall it.
I like the suggestion of emphasizing Bernie’s confusion and fogginess.
March 16th, 2008 at 7:26 am
I did the re-read thing a coupla’ times too, after I realized that Bernie was dreaming. I kinda decided that everything after the bp rising was a dream…(I thot maybe you used that physical reaction as the vehicle for the start of the dreaming) except that before that she’d been told that Glenda was alive, so I was a little confused for a bit. So the whole first recollection was a dream then?
I’m going to go on and read the conclusion and it should come together for me.
I’ve been back-and-forth about trusting Shonda but it seems logical that Bernie must have an ally in all of this…